i just want someone to talk to
without sounding totally
self inflated
oh god help me
this is it
i am going down
for good this time.

pronouns are stupid anyway

stop it you silly girl
oh god this is not good
i feel like i'm gunna puke
someone please help me
i am so screwed
i was gunna fake it
until i was finally happy again
it isnt working
i thought i was better
now i'm back at the beginning
i need to run
somewhere
anywhere
i need to get away from here
please just get me out of here
from my safe little computer desk and my warm hoodie
i wanna be buried in the snow, freezing
just to feel something
anything
other than this horrible sadness
nothing matters anymore to me
i've gotten to the point of apathy
this is not good
help me hold on someone
please please please
run
run away from this sickness
you are stronger than this
you cannot be so broken
or we will lose the pieces
stop crying
you NEED to be stronger
even when it's all falling through
please don't let it get to you
we worry
who the fuck is we
i dont know anymore
i'm too psycho to even understand myself
or us
i'm not sure what the pronoun would be yet.