i will never escape.

i'm getting better at avoiding all the questions,
and all your selfish pre-determinations,
don't give me those looks,
my mind's already full,
my body's already booked,
i don't need more occupants,
so please stop asking
it just creates more havoc
and i simply cannot bear that,
cos i am simply not everlasting,
every word you've spoken
is pulling at my edges,
creating cuts i cannot see,
but you don't understand,
you're silently killing me,
so please let me go,
don't hold me so fucking close,
you've got lips, i know,
but i've got teeth, you, you dont know,
me, or anything about me,
you just know the fronts i put up,
to keep people like you out,
but somehow you jumped the wall,
got past the one you see,
to the raw bits of insanity
i try so desperately to hide,
god, i'm begging you,
stop tearing me up on the inside,
reality is no longer factual,
i need something actual,
to hold onto,
so this is my very last plea,
this is me letting go of me.